hm..
okay so i kinda need to rethink my life atm. well not rethink but replan i guess. i failed my midterm, which was a surprise to no one but still not that cool. my ( this ) graduation project is not clear and i dont have a strong core i can verbalize. if i dont want to have to work the entire summer ( which i really do not want to ) i'll have to use Etslicht as my graduation project. to be honest it is also a relief kinda.
to be human is bigger than my graduation at this point, it's something thats just going to keep on growing. and i can grow it here, in this place. a little corner, tiny computer. if i slowly work on a functioning cyberdeck with a nice keyboard and a epaper display and normal display tooooo. perhaps some way to plug headphones in, a gpio thingy probably ? some type of shield ? perhaps. and a nice way to transport it too, something that folds maybe ? or slides out ? i would love satisfying switches, a light interface thats quicker. a way to work on my site and keep track of resources.
a nice little creative coding machine next to my macbook. something colourful and nice to use, with upgradability and full control. a way to display my stuff, make pages for my journal pages, hobbies, shrines !! a pacific rim place, cool images, just bits of me.
recently made a page all about m e which is cool i cant wait to make it look cooler. i want to get better at html because i think it is fun and important and nice. i like the way im living my life right now, i feel like myself. i am myself. this is very nice, i feel good. like me.
alright its been enough, time to go home
